luck? a blessing? don't know...

Okay, everybody, I have to shamefully admit something. Truman's picture that's on here is also at kittyporn.com. Oh, I'm hanging my head in shame. Would this count as 'prostituting' my cat out?
And, wow, just...wow!

Well, I told you I have dr appts nonstop for, it seems like forever. I was trying yesterday to have Dr Stone's assistant with her in Cleveland, set me up with iv steroids...not a f'in' chance! She said that she and Dr Stone haven't seen me since Mar 07 (like, WTF, do they think I'm better now?) grumble, grumble...but she had the appt people call me first thing this morning, and the earlieat they had for me was MAY 23!! Of course I did some of my most pathetic voices on her, said my ms has NEVER been this bad in 14 years, I fell out of my wheelchair twice this week for God's sake!! But nope, she said that;s it. ...I got off the phone & just ranted & raved, cried, begged God to take me home (my idea is, if He did it, it wouldn't be suicide per se.) Neither would any handy axe murderer. They seem to be in short supply these days...
Anyway, I called the psychologist I see here every day (Mon-Fri, 6 hrs a day!...it's a group thing) and told him I couldn't make it for awhile, I WANT to fix my head, but my body needs it more right now! He understood that 100%, which was great!
After that, I called Dr Stone's receptionist, & told her I couldn't get an appt til May 23...I had told her yesterday what my symptoms were, & why I REALLY wanted the steroids now. Robin is the most amazing receptionist I know!! She said, "AAwwww, Libby, give me an hour to work some of my magic. I'll calll you back, okay? Just sit tight (I was gonna jog around the block, but...)" She called me in half an hour, and now my appt's next Wednesday at 10:45!! I screamed Oh, Robin, I LOVE YOU!!! Wouldn't you??
BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

????have you ever looked back at a high school picture of yourself...

Yeah, the little baby kitten's cute...but I'm still partial to Truman...

...con't from title...

You just HAVE to wonder where that bright-eyed, bushy tailed, happy teenager went...Is this what life is supposed to leave you like? Somehow, I don't think this is what God had in mind for us. I can understand when people have been 'used up' by life, drugs, all that. But there are a whole helluva lot of us out here that used to be described as "joyous", and always laughing. What happens to THAT? I don't neccessarily mean me, per se, just anyone. I know what the hell happpened to me...but what about all the other people who seem to have lost their joy at being , just, alive? I swear I'm going to feel that again, no matter what it takes...nope, no crack either (lol!). I'm pretty sure a shot of iv steroids would help. But I want to feel good on my own first! Yeah, I'm already trying about everything I can think of, besides ECT (that scares the shit out of me!), or a frontal lobotomy (hey sj, this is for you...I'd rather have a bottle in front of me than a frontal lobotomy!). No, I don't know if I'm just seeing the wrong people, or what, but not many people seem to be walking around just smiling for apparently no reason at all! I think the last time I saw that was a guy at a Red Wings hockey game, who was just standing next to us, smiling to himself, and swaying back and forth like he was hearing music that nobody else could hear. And, no, this was before the time of bluetooth things, or anything like that!

BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

dr appts all over the place!

Would she be the new "crocodile hunter"?
That cat looks exactly like Truman!!

And this one is just scary!!

Okay, I've been having weird realistic dreams lately. The other night, I dreamed that I was about 10, and up at Kyle & Joel's house (my cousins)Joel was a few years older than Kyle, he was killed when I was 15, cleaning his gun after hunting, it went off and killed him. That was the first person I knew and loved that died, unneccesarily. I'll never forget him, he was , well, I know this will sound strange to say about an 18 year old guy, but he was just naturally kind. I'll never forget how nice & patient he was with me & Boo on the Sundays we went to Grandma's, and we'd be bored and nag him to do something with us, so he's take us upstairs (us little kids weren't allowed up there by ourselves...ever since we soaped the windows up there on the inside...remember?). So he'd take us up there and let us look for comic books, or coloring books, or real books. Or he'd get Kyle & have him come outside with us, and we'd all play tag or hide-and-seek. There really weren't many places besides Grandma's farm that were better to play hide-and-seek at, with hundreds of acres, creeks, patches of woods, a big tree that had fallen down into a creek a long time ago (we called it Sewer Road, cuz it stunk there), the big red barn, the chicken coop...man, just anywhere!! It was always fun to play with "the big kids". (Kyle was about 2 years younger than Joel, and I was 1 year older than Boo, and 2 or 3 younger than Kyle).

Also in my dream, I was up at K & J's house, it was on the outskirts of their town, and they had a huge 2-or 3-story barn.On rainy days, we'd play in the barn there, because they had made the second story into a basketball court, and it was FUN!! ...or we'd play hide and seek there, their backyard was huge, and the barn was part of the hide and seek area!

The other dreams were more like 'memories', of when I was a produce manager...the most fun job in the world, in the 80's!
BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

bleeaahh...

What a disapproving look!! I thought my Grandma (Mom's Mom) had that patented, but, obviously, she's been duped!


And, now, THIS is just WAY CUTE!!






For some reason, Boo & I ALWAYS got that disapproving look. She especially got it when she entered & won the Greased Pig Catching contest at the county fair up there. Grandma acted like she was humiliated in front of all her friends from church, but, you know what? I bet she was secretly proud!!
Actually, they named him Pork Chop, and ate him a few weeks later!! lololol!
I still remember the time I stayed with Boo when we were little, on a Friday night. We got up Saturday and watched our Bugs Bunny cartoons, and ate Cheerios for breakfast. Then Boo's mom (my aunt, of course) took us to the grocery store. Boo & I were acting really goofy & stupid, the way you do when you're staying with a cousin you have fun with, but don't see enough of. We went past somebody's shopping cart, and Boo, for some reason, decided to pick the box of Cheerios out of that lady's cart...while she was looking!...and announce "Hmmmmm...THIS looks familiar!!" Only a couple of 7-year olds...
I have a question. To anybody who's ever been in or to a psych ward at a hospital...just because of what it's called, you'll automatically think a certain way about the people, and if you ever talk to them or listen to them, you'll find they're exactly like you! Which begs the question...are they normal, or are you psychotic? Just wondering...
Okay! It was finally sunny & warm today, and I took my scooter out finally! I am so out of practice with that thing. Not that I drove it bad, it just wore my ass out!! I went to Certified and spent my $25.00 gift card from Christmas...on CHOCOLATE!! And other assorted things...you know, blue & white gummy sharks, candy necklaces, frosted animal crackers, Fritos, etc.
BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

more thinking....

Okay, I'm eating Nutter Butters 24/7. (In between meals, of course.) This should help!

Last night my 2 brothers and I went to Mom & Dad's house, and we started kinda dividing some of the furniture up.We got through some parts of some rooms...not far, but 4 of the couches, 2 bedroom sets, some hutches, some tables, one rocking chair, a big screen tv, etc...Still have most of the first floor to do, though...then the basement! Tif & I brought home a huge 50 lb box of my old school papers, reports, birthday cards, EVERYTHING from when I was in the first through 7th grade!! Boy, did we get a huge laugh out of that! And, might I add...all of the school papers had A+, Excellent, Perfect, etc on them! Tif even brought me home my baby bracelet from the hospital when I was born, tonight! The other night when I was over there with Bro & bigger bro, I drank a beer and actually felt better than I have in years! I even had better balance!
BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

i missed april fool's day!!! oops!~

'Welcome to the Hotel California...you can check out any time you like....you just can never leave".

Love that song...'course, did the Eagles ever have a bad song?

See the picture of the kitten & the dog? I'm hearing that in the background right now, with Truman and Lilly...nahhh, they actually get along pretty well...as long as there's no physical contact from Lilly...then she gets hissed at!

Been away for a week...I guess everybody deserves a 'break' sometimes, right?
Lilly just got new toys...and a couple of them are stuffed animals! She has a pink teddy bear that squeaks, and a squid...pink too, of course! And we're all trying to teach her the difference between when we say 'Get me the squid!' and 'Get me the bear!' She's getting pretty good at it, I must say...we're actually jealous of my uncle's dog (Boo's dad)...uncle gave his dog a plastic elephant once, and would throw it and say "Get me the pachyderm!" And he always does. Impresses the shit out of people who don't realize how our family is with words! We're all crazy about words.
Okay, I'm gonna go, I'm really trying to keep to my schedule of going to bed by midnight, and eating three meals a day (I weighed 92 lbs last Monday, 94 lbs today, so I'm going in the right direction....
BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

...gonna die in a small town...that's probly where they'll bury me...

C'mon everybody over 40, be honest. Did you all have at least one or 3 of the Frampton Comes Alive album? Every person's apartment I went to a party at had at least one, in the collection of milk crates you could always steal from the back of the grocery stores!

Decided to waste time for the next few days thinking of old shit...hopefully I can get iv steroids this week, then I can really start looking forward to the wedding in November.

Like, as far as the song 'Flirtin' With Disaster'...pew...I not only flirted with it, I stripped down and obviously went skinny-dipping in the toxic cesspool!! Thank God for my healthy daughter!

"Here I go again on my own"...Whitesnake, for the 'young kids' out there. And there's always "Da-Doo-Doo-Da-Da-Da"...This is the best radio station in the world...106.9 Houston/Conroe. "I Went To The Danger Zone..."

I got an email today from a friend who is a nurse, and she said she's glad I didn't get Chantix. She said the doctor she works for doesn't even prescribe it now! Crazy shit, how certain people use it & it does well, but then there's people like me that would be scared as hell of it!

"Men...you can't live with them...you can't kill 'em"

LibbY!

...

...You got no place to be Still you wonder where youre goin And why I had to leave I hear a voice and it says to me Find your way back...

I'm still trying...no, Nea, not sideways...I hope I'm smarter than that...but thanks for wondering, though. Okay...saw the psychiatrist Tuesday...he said it's a bad time for me, and he won't prescribe Chantix (I'm already on antidepressants, varied & sundry!) for me right now. Saw the psychologist today, and she said she's never in her professional life said to a patient, 'you couldn't have picked a worse time to try to quit smoking if you'd have sat and planned it!!'...so, yeah, I've cheated a little bit, but, I'm only smoking like 2 a day, and, honestly, NO, they don't taste good, either, so, trust me, it's not gonna last!!
Tif & R are still living here till they get married in Nov, and it's fun...them and 'their little dog too'! Her name is Lily, and she's a sheltie/Jack Russell mix! She's a really good little dog...rather in need of Prozac...damn, why can't I be all that happy all the time?...ahh, well. Actually, she's upstairs in her cage all day when they're both at work, because our back yard isn't fenced in anymore cuz of my ramp, and there's no way in hell I want to take a chance of her running away.
Tif & R were calling the electric company last week to check how much their bill will be in their new house...it seems that it's gonna be quite a bit more than their house payment every month! OUCH!!
I absolutely love "Two and A Half Men!" I never watched this show when it was on in the evenings much. But now...it is FUNNY as hell!!
Okay...that's really all that's up here, just thought I'd touch base so Christine doesn't have a holy shitfit cuz I didn't post!! lol!
DrAgS....LibbY!

...find your way back...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sFs8G0yOtfc

Sorry Joe, I HAD to steal this! I sat and watched it til I cried again today...I got high for the first time at this concert, and I was probly high for a few days afterward! (I think I had fun, though...) I was actually 14 or 15!
This is the kind of stuff I'm trying to keep my mind on now...you know...FLUFF! But I'm finally eating again...4 days without it really isnt good for you, you know? I didnt....
So...it's been a month since I've smoked. I still want to, more than anything! For heaven's sake, I smoked for 28 years...and now I havent for a month? Puh-leez...
My psychologistis writing me a prescription for Chantix tomorrow. I guess one of the possibly side effects is suicide...I guess this means eithher way you wont smoke again....

what's the point/

I'm so fucking tired of being hurt. Why are people so Goddman mean? Does it make them feel good? All I can do now is hope & pray that I never treated anyone weaker than me like shit! I really don't think I ever did...but if I made anyone feel like this...damn me to hell.
Truly I hope karma comes back and bites him in the ass, and his little girlfriend...
LibbY

Friday...a HUGE snow weekend is on the way!

EEeeeeeeeewwwwww! Ever seen the movie "Arachniphobia"?

No words are even needed for this picture...

This weekend here in Ohio we're supposed to get shit-tons of snow!! I'm actually a little bit excited about it, cuz, no matter what everyone says, I don't think we've gotten much REAL snow this year! Not like snow you could go sledding on, or anything, anyway. Or build a snowman in...or throw endless amounts of snowballs...Or build a fort to hide behind to ambush people...

However, we are supposed to get about 12 to 18 inches of snow here in central Ohio! More up toward Cleveland! Supposed to start snowing tomorrow morning, and keep going til Saturday afternoon!! Yippee! Okay...I'll shuttup...

I'm really looking forward to daylight saving time starting this Saturday night/Sunday morning. I love the extra hour of light!!

This morning, Bro picked me up at 9, so we could meet up with G at the lawyer's office. It went good...Mom & Dad left excellent records about where everything was...they were such special people...they were truly the last of a very special generation! And that does nothing but make me determined to do the same for Tif! The only problem I'd have is, well, I might not have a damn thing to leave...well...maybe a bag of Twizzlers and a roll of quarters, does that count?

It was good at the lawyer's office today, mostly because Bro rides motorcycles with him...they're both total riding freaks! Recently I know Bro's ridden down to southern Ohio, the hills down there, and California, Arizona, North Carolina, and all the states around it! They were talking about how the older they get, the less they want one of those motorcycles that you have to lean way forward to grab the handlebars! And they were both extolling the virtues of 'inversion tables''! Holy crap! Isn't Bro still 29, like I always remember him? Well, I guess not...the lawyer said that I was supposed to have a trust until I was 25...both my nice older brothers started laughing uproariously at that...while I sat there with a big ol' pout on my face, and asked the lawyer "And what's so FUNNY, huh??"...

Bro & G are both color-blind, and they were talking about how when the were little, they used to color the grass brown, and the dog green! I just said maybe that was a birth defect...like being BOYS is!! lol!

BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

Tuesday, March 4th...voting day for Ohio...

This is the funniest ebay buyer's name I ever saw!! The sad thing is, I might not have even caught it if I was the seller!!

...and, I think this is what you get when you have dial-up, isn't it??

Well, I'm awake again, it's now really Tuesday morning, not just after midnight!

Bro & G were here last night...they came over around 7 last night cuz we all knew that we needed to get together to deal with all the stuff going forward after Mom's funeral and everything. And we actually had kinda a good time, sharing memories and everything, and I got to hear more about before I was born, everywhere they lived and everything...like Dearborn, Michigan, Battle Creek, Michigan, Massillon, Ohio, Argentina (for Dad's job), then down to here. G was talking about when they were in Argentina, he was 3 (had his 4th birthday down there!), Bro was only 1 or 2, and G was saying that one time when they were down there, they had been out of the hotel rooms, and when they got back, the windows in their rooms had been blown out by explosions in the street! That had to be huge explosions, cuz they were on the 11th floor!!, and then got moved to the 14th! His memory must be like mine, cuz he remembers what floors they were on and everything! He even totally remembers the trip down there, the plane ride took days because they went to New York City first, then to, maybe Cuba, it was before Castro's day. It was a propellor-type plane, and to me, that's amazing! Living in Argentina's amazing too!

Anyway, Bro showed up at the door at 7:15 with 2 huge pizzas and a case of beer, and we settled in to figure out what to do. Bro called Mom's lawyer at home at 9, and set up our appt with him for tomorrow morning, and he had a bunch of notebooks that Mom had been writing notes in for the last few years (neat to see her writing again!), and she had probably had 10 pages of things that were antiques, and she was specific about the things and where they came from...like a glass basket from her grandpa's grandpa!! Wow! How neat! There's all kinds of stuff like that in her house, and we're all trying to figure out how to split it. We're going to start out by doing what Mom & her brothers and sister had done, and all of us sit down and write down the 5 pieces of furniture we wanted the worst, and see how that goes, cuz, who knows, we might not even want the same things. So...I dunno...it's just gonna be a hard thing to do. But, we did have some fun last night, talking about things...G has Dad's car already, and he was telling us how this had gone wrong, and that had needed replaced, and it cost a lot of money...and Bro laughed and said, "You know Dad's looking down and laughing his ass off, like HAHA!, cuz you always buy old-ass cars & fix them!! Even if they're not worth it!!" haha...that's probably true!! G's always been a crazy-ass about cars...I asked him last night how many cars he has...he said "I'm not tellin'" God!! This is my 55 yr old brother!! not 16!!

And I told them about the time in Detroit that our car needed water, when we were on the freeway, a black guy stopped to help us, Dad got back in the car, and Kim asked if he told 'the spook' thank you? Just because he's been referring to black people all through Detroit as that!

Okay...I gotta get ready to go vote, Kev's dad is giving me a ride over there.

BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

Friday night...

...4 1/2 days without smoking...not even smelling smoke! Actually, I guess that's the thing that makes this the easiest...I live alone, and nobody else is around smoking, so I can not smell it! Kev's dad went to WalMart with me today, and I went crazy in the candy aisle...ya know, Twizzlers, Jolly Ranchers, all that important stuff...


Oh, I got one hell of a surprise Sunday morning! The phone rang, and I looked at the caller id, and it said "unavailable" (well, it didn't say it...I had to read it...). I usually just ignore it when it doesn't tell who it is, but for some reason, I answered it, and it was a guy from my high school class of 1983 (!), who is doing a major part of planning our 25 year reunion!! Holy crap!! That was wild...he was someone who was friendly with everyone in school, but in a totally different group of people than me..(he wasn't a 'stoner', I was!). So that was neat, to catch up with him, find out what he's doing, where he is (Cleveland!). He said he met his wife 23 + years ago in Georgia when he was there, then they came back here...I said "she must really love you, to give up GA weather for Cleveland!!" So that's gonna be this Labor Day weekend...I said I might be there, but, honestly, I doubt if I will be. Not the least of the reasons is Tif getting married in Nov!
Seriously, it is SO damn cold, damp, windy, etc outside!!
Oh, yeah...Happy Leap Day. Or Sadie Hawkins Day...which means this is the day that women can ask a guy to marry them...(if they're stupid...).
God, I truly, truly want a smoke right now!! GRRRRRRR!!!
BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

new life...

...Excerpts from a Cat's Diary:

Day 983 of my captivity.My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects.They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while the other inmates and I are fed hash or some sort of dry nuggets. Although I make my contempt for the rations perfectly clear, I nevertheless must eat something in order to keep up my strength.The only thing that keeps me going is my dream of escape. In an attempt to disgust them, I once again vomit on the carpet.Today I decapitated a mouse and dropped its headless body at their feet. I had hoped this would strike fear into their hearts, since it clearly demonstrates what I am capable of. However, they merely made condescending comments about what a "good little hunter" I am. Bastards!There was some sort of assembly of their accomplices (minions!) tonight. I was placed in solitary confinement for the duration of the event. However, I could hear the noises and smell the food. I overheard that my confinement was due to the power of "allergies." I must learn what this means, and how to use it to my advantage.Today I was almost successful in an attempt to assassinate one of my tormentors by weaving around his feet as he was walking. I must try this again tomorrow -- but at the top of the stairs. I am convinced that the other prisoners here are flunkies and snitches. The dog receives special privileges. He is regularly released - and seems to be more than willing to return. He is obviously retarded.The bird has got to be an informant. I observe him communicate with the guards regularly. I am certain that he reports my every move. My captors have arranged protective custody for him in an elevated cell, so he is safe. For now...



...hahaha!! This is SO Truman!! Naahh...Trumie would never think like this about ME!! (I'm a super demi-god when it comes to fooling myself..).

Well, I'm doing it..I've been cutting down on cigarettes during the last couple weeks...Sunday it was 5 a day...and I had my last one at noon yesterday... :-/ ! Oh, holy shit, it SUX!! I NEVER thought I'd miss it this bad!! But, it's for a good reason...no, it's not my healh (like I give 2 shits about that...). It's just so I can afford Tif's wedding dress! Figure it out...I usually go thru a carton a week...cartons cost 40.00....x 4 = $160.00 a month...definitely worth a few weeks of hell to quit....food already tastes better, my sense of smell is 100% better!
I could've broken down bigtime, & asked Joe to bring me a pack tonite, when he called, but I didn't even do that! I sure did whine about it, though...
I just saw a cool little sign in a catalog...it says..."If you want to make God smile, tell him your plans..." ...geez, that would make anyone smile!!
So, Kim called me the day Mom's obituary was in the paper. First time we've talked since Sept '06. She was crying about Mom when she called, then we were both doing the 'girly-thing'. Crying, apologized, straightened some stuff out...no, it's not perfect, but, you know what? Besides Tif & Joe, it's the strongest relationship I have...and even longer than either of those!! So, besides my brothers...it's worth fighting for, cuz it's the strongest thing I have to hang onto in the 'real world' (you know, x...meatspace!!).
Speaking of brothers...I'm actually gonna stop calling "Psycho" Psycho...from here I'm gonna refer to him as G..Yeah, I'm being soft, but, well...we're getting along all of a sudden...I think it took this slap in the face for us to realize "I don't have any parents anymore".
So, I'm gonna see about buying a burial plot up in the 'family's' cemetary...not owned by our family, but it's where all my family is on my mom's side...and the whole rest of the county, I think, belongs to my family...I know that every time you go by a house up there "Uncle D lives there...Aunt J lives there...Uncle B and Cousin C live there...Cousin L & his wife live there...". Yeah...that's the area I belong. Of course, after I'm dead, it's only a body...for all I care, you can stick a bone up my ass and let a dog drag me away...
All right...I have to get off of being all depressed & shit...give me another day or two...And why, oh, why, did I EVER choose that week, the week before Mom died to quit smoking?? Grrrrrr!!
BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

Friday, Feb 22, 2008

Mom passed away Feb 16, 2008. It was actually peaceful for her, I believe. She was in the hospital, and the brain cancer had come back, and they also did a cat scan and found that it was in her kidneys, liver, etc. We were talking about getting hospice, but her nurse said to wait a few days, she wasn't needing the decision made right away. So Tif and I sat on either side of her bed, talking quietly, and giggling a little bit with her about, ummm, the game 'Trouble', the card game 'Rack-O', 'Scrabble', the stuff she had liked to make, "Pigs in Blankets" (I always hated that...It was a huge smoked ham she cut up and rolled the pieces in cabbage leaves. Ew...sorry Mom! Nothing personal!

We were there holding her hands for her last two hours, but, like I said, she was at peace, as we all were. We were blessed to have that last 2 hours to talk to her, and tell her what a great job she had done as a Mom! (and a Grandma!, as far as Tif said, and I agree!).

I found the pictures above on the internet, and, amazingly, they both look like some of the barns and sheds on what used to be my Grandma H's farm, where Mom was born and grew up...Now it belongs to Mom's brother, Uncle D, who is Boo's dad!

This is very special to me, also...Tif is definitely my go-to girl! She took me up to the funeral home with her Monday night, and she did Mom's hair and nails for her, and at the funeral she read something she had written about them when she was little! She made me very proud!

Okay...that's all for now....

Libby

Valentine's Day...

...used to be a fun holiday...

Sunday the 10th!!

Man, good thing this little kitty doesn't have a covered litterbox like Truman!! She'd be 'lost and gone forever, my darlin' Clementine...'

This would be a good car alarm, wouldn't it?? Reminds me of the time Tif and I were lost a little bit out in the country, and went past a car with a COW laying on top of it!! Hooves would even be harder to climb with than paws, you know? lol!



Okay, everybody, it's for real officially now! Tif & one of her bridesmaids & I went out yesterday and found THE DRESS!! And she only tried on 4 dresses~!
It's a perfect size 4, and it looks like it was designed for her and fitted to her! The women at the bridal store all came in and all have the same opinion...'course, they probably work on commission, too...they said they can't see where it would need any alterations or anything, it's long for her, but they said this brand, you can order in a petite at the same price, and it's 3 inches shorter, which is perfect! So...that's where any income tax I get is going!! To me, I WANT to pay for her wedding dress...that's kind of her "launch" off into the rest of her life, ya know? I never had a wedding dress per se. The first time I got married, well, it wasn't like a fancy wedding or anything, although it was in a church.
It was really funny, they brought her a 'crinoline' to try on, under the dress, to pouf it out, and everything. And the lady that worked there had to be on her knees behind Tif under the dress to make sure it hung just exactly right and everything...and as if that wasn't funny enough, she crawled out from there and said "Oh well, honey, at least you're one of the customers that wears underwear..". Eeeeeewwwww!! The worst part of that? You don't BUY a crinoline...you RENT it!! Aw, c'mon!! That just creeps the shit out of me!! It would you too, if you saw the makeup stains on the dresses sometimes! lolol!!!
So I want to get it ordered in the next couple weeks or so, cuz it'll take 12 to 15 weeks to get it. Wow...that's all I can do is sit here and whisper to myself over and over...wow....
I was up most of the night watching "Single White Female", it came on around midnight. Good movie! And "You've Got Mail" just ended...before that it was "Dumb and Dumber"...and in between, I'm reading one of the Mary Higgins Clark mystery books...yup...it's been one of the most memorable weekends of my life! Oh yeah...Tif also took me over to show me through their new house, and it is beautiful! Big backyard, big deck, split level 3 bedrooms...they've already ripped all the kitchen cabinets out, and showed me the ones they're going to order, and they're in the middle of scraping the wallpaper in the big bathroom upstairs.
BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

It's Friday!!

Woohoo! Throw Momma From the Train is on!! I LOVE this movie!! My yittle Tif PoohBear got me hooked on this when she was 5, for God's sake!! Between this and Cinderella, our evenings were covered!! And I just happened to think...we lived in an upstairs apartment, the stairs were just regular wood, completely uncovered, but they did have a handrail....
...thank God I never really treated her like Momma in the movie!! She'dve pushed my ass straight down those stairs!! And the guy in the downstairs apt would've come outside and said "What happened?" And Tif would've looked up at him with those big blue/green eyes and sniffed a couple times and said "Mommy fall down and go boom, Henry..." hahaha!
I do remember us calling each other "Owen" sometimes! Just to see who could sound more like Momma!! Some good times!!
I really have to give a great big high-five to all the people at Time Warner Cable here!! They had set up an appointment to hook me up with the digital phone service here, Feb 5 between 4 & 7! And I still have the same phn number, was never without service, and it is just like a regular phone connection, they just had to change the connections of some wires in the box outside, the jacks & modem in here, and...voila! I'm off Verizon, and on TWC, which is a lot cheaper, has all the features, and ...FREE LONG DISTANCE from my home phone! Yeah, I know a lot of people get that with their cell phns, but...I'm old, remember? So, even not counting long distance, I'll save $50/month!! Wow! I NEED THIS!! And I know if the electricity goes off, my phone goes off...so what? That's why I have a cell phone, just for emergencies. And, unbelievably, one of their supervisors from a different town stopped over the next day to check on the cust svc I got! Sheesh!! Who does that?? Yup...I'm a cheapskate...out of necessity. I was as soon as I was 18, and moved out on my own with Tif...if I didn't have the cash, I didn't buy it! And, honestly, I don't mind it!
I read a quote by Arthur Conan Doyle last night that I'll never forget again..."Character is shown by behavior". As a matter of fact, maybe I should have it tattooed on me!!
I'm busy getting most of the stuff straightened up in here cuz I really want to hire someone to come in here and wash all the walls and everything, for spring cleaning, so I'm hoping that Tif knows someone who needs a job!! She's got WAY too much to do right now...she called last night and was scraping the wallpaper off a bathroom! That's gonna be a big job.

I have one question, if anyone out there can tell me what their theory is...why are people so Goddamn mean and sneaky? And then totally lie about it, like you'll be too stupid to figure anything out? Come on...that's total sociopathic behavior, thinking you're smarter than everybody else...kinda like "Scott Peterson-ish"...is it in the water? Or just society as a whole? And don't say "I didn't used to be like that..this or that person made me like that!" Funny, but most of the people I've heard do this are guys, not women...
BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

Busy Super-everything weekend!

A stunning multi-generational family photograph...'cept I think there might be a couple generations in the middle that aren't there...










It's been a pretty neat weekend...maybe cuz I haven't done much of anything. Just read and, laundry, watch tv....I guess that's what old people call "puttering around the house". I guess that makes me an "old person"...oh well...you live and learn...that's the difference between a woman and a girl. right?

Oh, I have a "Mom update"! She's out of the nursing home and living in an senior apartment complex, and likes having an apartment to herself, not a bed with room-mates that come and go! I'm gonna go out and see the apartment this week, it sounds nice. I know Bro and wife and some of their kids were in and out of there before she went in, just to kinda furnish it and stuff, because once when I called his cell, he was out there with his tape measure and they were arranging the furniture and everything!...and, I'm not really sure, but I think it has a lot more than I ever would've thought a retirement community would...she even has an aide or nurse or someone come to her three times a day to take her down to the dining room to eat, and stop by to give her her pills in the morning! Wow, she's in a place that's really going to be good for her when she starts meeting some of the other people. But I absolutely hate the fact that I can't get out there whenever I want to go, I have to get a bus...but...I'm at least able to call her every day or two...she even has her home phone number now, we got it transferred last week...and I know my mom, that's just one step that makes it feel like 'home' to her. It just, well, seems so wrong that I'm sitting here wanting her to make friends and all that...it's just not fair to her that anybody else should have to take care of that for her! You know, I don't mind doing it, I wish I could do more, I just hate that life gets to be like this in the end...but, I know she's got an active mind, she reads as much if not more than I do...she just would never read, like Stephen King, or any stuff like that...she's more into stories about people in England, just calm, peaceful stories.

I called Boo Sunday morning, and she told me something hilaious! She said 'I was gonna tell you! I saw W last week in WalMart, in one of the towns up there' (W is the boyfriend that Mouse and I had, off and on more or less!). Boo never liked him much, always was telling me I could get better...yeah...not Mr Right, he was Mr Right Now, and, at certain points in life, that's what you need. Anyway, she said he had a little girl (around 7ish) with him (a daughter???)...and we both kinda giggled at that. Then she said 'Yup...she's quite the little pudge...'. That's amazing, because he was skinny, like me! She must've read my mind, cuz she said 'and he still looks exactly the same as he did 20 years ago (oh, how fair is that?), skinny, same glasses, same hair, everything! We just kinda talked about the Super Bowl get-together she was making cookies for, and other stuff, and then got off the phone. Last night I called Mouse and told her about it, and she got a helluva laugh out of it too! Especially when I said 'He has a kid?? Eeeeewwww..'. She told me years ago that he'd called her to see if she wanted to go out for a beer...and she had said 'Well, no, I can't...I'm about 8 months pregnant, it probly wouldn't look good' hahahahaha! Come to think of it, I got an email last week from another friend up there I used to work with, telling me about running into someone from the store...odd, isn't it? Almost like I feel like I'm sitting here with a spiderweb of knowledge over the whole part of Ohio...
BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

WABBIT, WABBIT!!

Wow, yesterday was amazing...most of it was, anyway...
Tif's not doing hair anymore right now...she quit a couple weeks ago, & she's a leasing agent for a new apartment complex right outside of town! I went out there for a few hours yesterday, to see her office, all the people she works with, some apartments...they're really nice, sliding door off the bedroom to the pond, lots of room in the 1-bedroom apt, walk-in closets, the only drawback that would hold me back is (well, besides the fact of this house) is that it's out of town, and I wouldn't be able to just hop on my scooter and ride around here in town...and, to me, that's unacceptable.

Hmmm....ok, ok...yeah, I just dug this picture out...Tiffany drew it in 2nd grade...
I crack my ass up! Sorry..had to!

The offices of the apartments is huge! It's not just a bunch of boxed off offices or anything, it's kinda like one big room. Which, at the moment, is great...but, you know, what happens sooner or later when one person's mad at another? You know, no matter what you might think, it's gonna happen someday!! But for the moment, it's neat! Tif has their Jack Russell mix in there with her cuz her boss has her Yorkie...oh my God, they're a hoot! But they don't cause trouble or anything, they get along really good! So, after yesterday, we were both excited cuz Tif & fiance sign papers on the house tonight (they did! woohoo!~!)...
The realtor was as happy as they were, hugs, etc, Lowe's gift card, cuz she wished every couple could be that happy. After they got done at the lawyer's office, they were going over to the house to meet some friends & go out to dinner tonight. The phone rang righjt after she had told me what was up, so I figured she was happy & jumping around. Ummm...she was jerked to beat hell, they all were! Cuz within 10 minutes of signing for the house, they go over there and...it's flooded cuz a pipe burst from last night's weather!! At least they caught it, and turned the water off...she just needed to come over and get some towels...so the house isn't flooded to the roof or anything...I don't wanna hear the words 'bad luck' here, or anything! Nahh, it's all okay, a maintenance guy from the apartments came & checked, it just needs a new pipe, and, well, she called and came over because "Mom!! Can I come over and borrow a lot of towels, please??" My poor little Tif-Pooh-Bear!! And I heard her mutter as she stomped out the door with an armload of towels..."Guess I know where the Lowe's gift card is going..."

When I got home and crawled in bed last night, I grabbed one of my old books to read , "Soylent Green"....and that's what I've been doing for the last 24 hours! That book is so weird, especially during this election year! I'm trying to figure out which political party is spoken of as being the bad guys here. At one point you just know it's the Repulicans, the next thought is "No, it's the Democrats, this is what happens when the government thinks they're the ones who need to take care of us, cuz we're too stupid to do it ourselves...but, either way, it's 1999, all birth-control is against the law, and the USA and everywhere else is overpopulated, almost everybody is homeless, living in rusted out cars that have been there for years, cuz we ran out of oil forever ago, there's no heat or electric, and about all women have about 10 kids, that are all sick cuz it's GOOD to have babies, all the old people are half-dead, but our medicine has been good enough to keep them alive instead of them dying when their bodies wear out...and, New York City has 35 million people living in it...and there are almost 7 billion in the US...
cheerful reading, huh? This is honestly one of the best books I ever got off ebay! It's actually a screenplay of the movie Soylent Green (wait'll ya figure out what that is!), called "Make Room, Make Room!" from like 1940's or 50's!
Then the other night I woke up about 4 am, and the movie "Philadelphia" with Tom Hanks was just starting...so I had to stay awake and watch it!! And cry, of course...
BoUnCeS!! LibbY!