Friday, July 29, 2011

dear ms...

...or un-dear ms..

You've done your best to beat me down into a shadow of what I was supposed to be (in my mind, anyway!), but I thank God every day for making me be a strong woman to begin with, & giving me more strength with every new symptom that shows up...and that's been a whole fucking lot of symptoms over the last 17 years! Hell, I lost the physical ability to write in 1995, so it's a total blessing that computers have become something that nearly everyone has now. So, blah! Screw you! For some reason, the strongest people are the ones who are cursed/blessed with any kind of chronic disease...for the most part, the people who can still DO things seem to melt away into the background of your life, no matter how diligently they profess their undying support & affection. They probably still do, and that's okay, I've found a lot of friends since, and my life is still full! And, I've learned to expect that, you lose the level of respect for some, but, you learn some people you're better off losing them, instead of hanging on for too long....remember the saying "Familiarity breeds contempt" I've found it's all too true...
Honestly, if it wasn't for me being the one with this hated disease & learning all the ins & outs of it firsthand, who knows?? I may have taken off running. As much as I'd HATE to admit it, I might've run too! See, so that's why I think the strongest people are the ones who get this disease...cuz if I wasn't this strong, I'dve offed myself a loooooonnnnnnnggggggg time ago! One definite thing you learn is patience! When you learn how little you can do, on your own, and you have to do everything slowly, cuz you'll fuck up if you hurry, trust me, you'll learn patience.
Or, when I voluntarily quit driving when I was 40, oh my God, there was almost nothing I'd rather do than drive! From the first time I could drive, it was "my thing"...Mom always used to say I took to driving like a duck took to water! I always loved hearing her say that. I even requested to be transferred to a store 50 miles north of Marion when I was 20 years old, and it was the perfect job for me. Took exactly an hour up 23N to get to, but it was a great drive through the country, I never had to go deal with driving to some big was just me & my rock...all through the 80's!
I'm really glad that I never knew I had ms until I was 29. If I'd known that I was going to get hit with the big "disabled" stick when I was a teenager, I never would've had, well, holy hell...Tiffany! Now that hurts like hell to think...because I still think she's the best of me, you know?
Anyway, you worthless sack of shit around my neck, I'm done writing you a worthless letter that doesn't make me feel better, just more depressed...thanks for the added strength...

BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

Friday, July 22, 2011

i have an open letter to write to ms...'ll be vile & full of hatred, lemme think about it for a while...i got the idea to do this from nicole's blog, my new normals, & if anybody has virgin ears, stay away!
BoUnCeS!! LibbY!

Sunday, July 10, 2011

okay...that's the end...

...I'm done with giving her that much concern. She deserves none, but is now getting ready to start her "bella vista"...I will forever feel like yacking up my dinner when I hear that phrase...
I did, however, sign the petition for Caylee's Law. How bad is society getting that we now need to have a LAW that says parents have to report a missing child in 24 hours? And it'll be a felony if you don't report a child's death in an hour.

And I'll give the last words to this guy...very colorful & descriptive language..rated at least R!

Sunday, July 03, 2011

closing arguments, 9:00 am Sunday July 3, 2011

The more I see the video of Casey playing with Caylee on the floor, I'm more sure of her guilt than ever. Because the major trait of sociopathy is true feelings that other people don't really exist, they treat everyone as if they're things there for their enjoyment, and if they get in the way of THIS PERSON'S life, they're rarely ever close again.
The most obvious example would be Casey being seen as a good mom, playing with Caylee; however, Casey thinks of Caylee as a stuffed animal that she can take out & parade around, to keep the image going, but Casey's life is & always has been about what Casey wants.
I've heard a lot of people saying there's nothing but circumstantial evidence here...hmmmm...Scott Peterson has been on death row for how many years because he got the dp for killing his pregnant wife because of circumstantial evidence. I think Casey will get convicted, but not of murder 1, she'll get murder 2, life in prison. Honestly, the only reason I don't want her to get the death penalty is that her family sure as hell doesn't deserve that shit!

BoUnCeS!! LibbY!